it has been so long i stepped into this blog.. so much things had happened.. things that i wouldnt want(or perhaps dare) to say in this blog.. how many pple actually understands how i truely feel.. i am not sure.. who would be there when i am really in need.. i don know either.. perhaps i didnt voice out my feelings.. but no one ask.. things are not as simple as it seems.. it is also not as complicated as u percieve.. so y am i writing all this craps.. y..

i think i need to be strong.. i need to brave through all these by myself.. there is no one to help me except for myself.. y must i always be so weak at the most critical moments of my life.. i wish that i can live my life in desolation but i know that is impossible.. i have to endure the realities of life, the cruel facts basically..

currently, i am in a midst of a macromedia flash course in sch. the teacher is now yanking awaying, teaching the class on how to create motion tween.. oh btw tomorrow is my birthday.. i am not sure where will i be going.. no programs so far.. perhaps i will have to spend it by myself.. that will be great too.. will be at xiaolings birthday party tomorrow evening too.. haha issnt it werid that it is actually my birthday too but i will be attending my friend's bday party.. well no one knows either so nvm.. haha..

i am feeling a bit sick now.. giddy basically.. don know y.. perhaps i will go and rest a while.. take care friends..