well dec is really a very happening month for mi. i went out to find jobs with fs then went chalet with the ngee ann gang and also went to many places on my own.
i was depressed but something is holding mi back... emotions.. where has all of those gone to.. i think i m feeling dead... not much of feelings to describe.. all numb...
the person that who brought mi the most happeniess also hurt mi most...
y must it be like that?... am i of such insgnificance to u.... perhapes... and i guesss that it must be true.... i will be leaving soon and i will never have the chance to be back ever again...and if u still think that there still is a lot of time.. i guess u r wrong.. r u really my best friend? i don noe or must i really denied it.. wats is called the best? is it just that we do everthing together, we play together, we go out together, we study together, and that wat we have gone through we can be considered the best?/
i beg to differ... when comes to people that have completely no emotions there is nothing that u can do to make him ur 'best' it is tough and really very difficult... if i tend to get angry so who is there left to repatch this relationship"?
so.. y must i try so hard? if one day i will be gone will u still be there? i m hiding all my pain and sorrows and i really don have that it will ever burst out to anger and fiery...and if really that day were to come... i will just forget and live in seclusion again...
people always say one 'best' will be enough... and i think is true... so do u have any? or is it that u r just neglecting all thouse that r around u ... who noes that one day a person that u wouldn't want to noe from ur 1st impression could turn out to be ur 'best'... i can say that i m neglecting all those around mi for a person that i m really fancy of and i have given the atmost attention to that person already... and if that the rest of my friends really read this... i must say that i m truely sorry....