i was quite happy today as i got a song for my blog. thank u dillon for recommending the site that hosts songs so that i can place a song here. i personally like this song a lot. this song is a theme song of a movie called xuan zhao chow jie lun. but the whole movie, jay only appeared at the very end of the show and was like about a min or so.. haha.. that was jay's 1st movie, besides the famous initia D, and i thought that not many pple actually knows abt it.. well just a short synopsis of the movie.. there is this gal who lost her bf and it is this song that she likes and listens with her boyfriend when he was alive.. then after been through much struggle, she finally picked herself up and found her new love.. and that is jay.. haha.. of cos u have to watch that show to feel how she felt that time.. it wasnt easy for her nor anyone else who lost their loved ones.. quite a sad movie indeed.. nevertheless, she had fought hard and she knows that there is no pt of dwelling over it, and life still moves on regardless of wat happens..

today aaron, gary and dillon asked me to be their "god-brother".. haha this actually comes to me quite suddenly and never did i expect it.. dillon is so cute and he always act pai sei loh and he say he don want when i ask him on the phone.. haha.. don know real or not =p ..

anyway this phrase came to my mind when they asked me to be thier god brother.. "with great powers come great reponsibilities" haha.. not that being a big brother i have great powers over them.. but the truth is if i agreed to it, meaning i have accepted the reponsibility not just to take care, but to take REALLY GOOD care of them and i cant afford them to get hurt or feel sad.. but the fact is that i don think i can even take good care of myself.. moreover, i have not been a really good brother in my family... so wat makes me think that i can seriously take good care of them.. i have expectations for myself and the greatest barrier is to overcome my pathetic self... there is this huge part of me to say yes cos i really enjoyed all my time spent with them, they had made a huge difference in my life.. but then again.. there is another part of me that refrained myself from agreeing...

it has been quite some time since i felt emotionally down... but it seems like is coming back to me.. perhaps i am putting to much feelings into this but somehow it saddens me when i got to see others depress.. that wasnt wat life is supposed to be.. maybe i am wrong.. that could be part and parcel of life.. but y does it hurt so much... is there an easier way out..? i am not sure... there are disillusions everywhere and i cant seem to understand why.. i am still trapped within my pathetic self... who is there to reach out for me...